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The silence... [May. 5th, 2006|09:12 am]
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Well, I still have no news. The report hadn't arrived yesterday. *grumble*

At this point I should thank those of you who have wished me well. Your kind wishes are appreciated. Truly.

All that said, I should let you all know than I am up for visits, especially from some of the beautiful women who've written expressing their sympathy *waggles eyebrows suggestively, before falling over*. I can happily sit on the couch and yak away, this doesn't seem to be contageous and I'm my normal self except that if I'm moving around I occasionally grab something to stop from toppling over. Besides, I'm going fucking stir-crazy people. LJ doesn't replace actual human contact.

Also I should explain why I don't like the sympathy thing so much - there are people way worse off than me. I don't class this as serious. I still have all my limbs, I can manage the pain, it's more frustrating than anything because I can't get about much at a point where I was really wanting to do things i.e. work, see V for Vendetta, Sharon, maybe join the Army Reserve...
And even if it does turn out to be serious, I'm still better off than many people. I remember dad as he died of cancer, just as he was starting to feel sorry for himself, he met a 9yo kid at kemotherapy who wasn't expected to make it. That's one of those things that has always stayed with me. Absolute worse case scenario, I've had four times as long as that kid, in reasonable health.

The other reason I don't like the sympathy thing is my mum. Every day, several times a day, she'll ask if I'm feeling better. I'm trying to get on with things, not define myself by how crap I feel. I'm still creating, even if it's just Skeletor Hordak. Constant reminders that I'm not well only help drag me towards depression, and I struggle with that when I'm not sick.

Normally I wouldn't have posted up about being crook at all, but since it's limiting me so severly, it's good to have that knowledge out there. I'm not good at saying no and very good at over-estimating how much I can realistically do without self-destructing. As it is I have things to do for C4, Conflux and Continuum Foundation that I'm just not getting to. Just dealing with Overton's has been exhausting and I'm still not getting the answers I need as they do that thing where they don't answer your actual question, but give you all the info you don't need. If I could drive, I would have gone there in person by now.

One big thing I'm thankful for. This hit after I got back to Melbourne. I can't imagine trying to drive (or be driven) from Perth back to Melbourne in this condition. It may well have ruined my desire to do future Nullarbor trips.

Got up this morning, went to loo, hopped back into bed and suddenly realised that there was no pain or dizziness! This is the first morning in a while where I haven't woken up in a bad way. Laid around for a while longer, couldn't sleep, got up. Wandered around for about five minutes with no problem whatsoever, then nearly fell over as the spinny head thing hit. Bugger! But I got a few good minutes and I still don't have a headache, so it's actually a pretty good day!

Funny thing is it comes after totally melting my brain last night on eBay. They had a special deal on gallery listings, so I took the chance to chuck up a bunch of stuff. Most of it's the little crap, of which I have much, until I have a good solid rating, then I'll start putting up the rarer items. But typically, with all the rare crap I have, what do we discover? A crappy old doll from the 70's (a Blythe doll to be precise) is worth hundreds of dollars even in poor condition! Ours is average. Not going to sell her, but may be a handy source of emergeancy income at some point. And while looking about I saw two comics were caught in a bidding war that had dragged them up to about $25, so I quickly threw my copies of those on.

eBay's been good to me. It allowed me to get rid of some stuff and the proceeds bought I, Claudius.

As I was downloading photos of crap quality merchandise to sell, there was one thumbnail that I couldn't quite figure out. Understand, the piccie was very small and my brain had well and truly melted by this point - but to me it looked rather like a turkey standing in front of a yellow hubcap type thing. I knew I hadn't taken it? Had Shaz? What was it?

Turns out it was a turkey.

Me, about to go into the moggy scan. I meant to put it up sooner but forgot, so here it is.

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It has lasers that help line stuff up and the black bit in the middle is the bit that rotates. Not much more to say except that I'm tempted to doctor the pic in photoshop to turn it into a giant mouth, or stick a workhole in the middle or something.


[User Picture]From: baralier
2006-05-05 01:19 am (UTC)
I think we need a caption competition with the photo.

Something along the lines of "Prototype scanning for the next clone army" perhaps?

Or the new series of Star Trek? Or maybe a TARDIS disposal chute?
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-05 01:36 am (UTC)
I was thinking of turning it 90 degrees and saying "Are you sure this hat is sun-smart?"
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[User Picture]From: cheshirenoir
2006-05-05 02:26 am (UTC)
I keep visualising a Stargate around the edge
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[User Picture]From: mistress_wench
2006-05-05 02:26 am (UTC)
It's HALs... You know the words that just suddenly came to mind were: goatse, rectummmmmmm!(from b3ta Buffy Swearing Keyboard), the classic "what are you doing Dave?", and a couple of other things.
If this is in bad taste, blame the chocolate birthday cake I had for breakfast ..yeah.
P.S. Ever had one of those iodine thingies? It's the oddest and possibly 'funnest' things to have your whole body just suddenly warm up. I'll probably never forgive myself for saying to the nurses that it felt like I had just peed myself, when I had it done to me..
K, I'm going now..
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[User Picture]From: kaths
2006-05-05 03:10 am (UTC)
From what I understand, what you said was a very common thing to say in that situation :)
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:37 am (UTC)
The one I had a few years ago was fish oil based and made me go cold.
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[User Picture]From: kaths
2006-05-05 03:12 am (UTC)
Ooh, it's a weenie tiny baby one!

Have you ever been in one of thost big MRI machines? I've had a couple done (but no more due to the titanium I now have in me), and they are very big and noisy. I'm not claustrophobic at all, but apparently some people need to be sedated to have them!

Yeah, the 'how are you feeling' thing is hard, especially if you're not feeling better. You want to give them good news, but the truth is not so good.
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:39 am (UTC)
But you can't even see it in the shot! How can you-

Oh, the machine!

Yes, in your case having the titanium ripped out would be way worse than those folks who forget to take out their genital piercings. It's not often you can say that!
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[User Picture]From: deborahb
2006-05-05 07:17 am (UTC)
It looks like you're on your way into a giant toilet!

(No, I don't mean that metaphorically. I mean, dude, it's a toilet!)

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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:40 am (UTC)
Yeah, go back to my beginnings...
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From: bigevilogre
2006-05-05 08:35 am (UTC)
Ooh hey, that's one of the new ones! The last one I ended up in was like being thrust headlong into a coffin with people constantly pounding on it. I found it rather entertaining actually. But then, my upcoming knee surgery shows how... unique I am in that I asked if I could watch the procedure.
Don't you love it in the morning when you wake up and nothing hurts? I usually think "Oh man... I don't feel any pain... what's wrong!?"
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:43 am (UTC)
Back to 'normal' this morning. *grin*

I can understand the curiousity about wanting to watch. I can't watch a needle, but if I'm nicely numbed, they can slice me up and I'm fine with it.

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[User Picture]From: ghoath
2006-05-05 09:38 am (UTC)
it really does look like a turkey in front of a yellow hub cap....well to me anyway

i'm glad someone else shares my sense of strangeness when seeing things in tiredness.
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:47 am (UTC)
Yay! That's exactly what I saw in the little thumbnail... drove me nuts!

Knowing some of your concerns, I've had some general eye-testing done and nada so far on the result front. And it looks like the CAT scan found nothing out of the ordinary, either. More tests!
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[User Picture]From: ghoath
2006-05-06 11:25 am (UTC)
good to hear :)
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[User Picture]From: shrydar
2006-05-05 10:10 am (UTC)
OMG! They've duct taped your BRAIN! (you can buy hats, you know..)

Keep up the Skeletor Hordak :)
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[User Picture]From: dalekboy
2006-05-06 01:47 am (UTC)
Thanks, glad you're liking the S/H.
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[User Picture]From: strangedave
2006-05-07 11:39 pm (UTC)
The funny thing is, I can see you in a few years saying "ah yes, skeletor and hordak, those crazy guys got me through some tough times" and actually meaning it.
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