||[Sep. 15th, 2009|09:29 am]
So, yesterday for the first time in ages, I felt properly productive, in that I managed to get a few important jobs out the way that weren't just housework/Lex related. Not my tax, but hey, getting some of that other stuff off my to-do list was nice. As a bonus I even got to listen to the Feast of Steven episode of Daleks' Master Plan, which as a real hoot, while I ate. And I looked at LJ, and even commented on one or two!
So today I wake up with an earache, sore throat, and my cold which has been gradually fading is back substantially worse than it was before - a wonderfully nasty sounding hacking choking cough.
For fuck's sake! What is this? Punishment for actually getting something done?! I've been sick non-stop since C5, and I'm getting a little tired of it.
What's really annoying is that once if I was sick I could more or less barrel through it if need be. It wasn't fun, but it could be done. Post-stroke, when normal everyday stuff knocks me about, and I have to be aware of potential knock-on effects to the rest of the week if I overdo something, even a minor cold knocks the stuffing out of me.
Plus having a cold now always brings with it the worry that Lex will catch it. And wouldn't that be fun?
*Shakes fist at random point in the sky* God! If you existed you bastard you'd so be sixth on my shitlist right now!
What, only sixth?
Now I am intrigued.. who are the Final Five?
Well two of them are here
. The others are an evil aunt of mine, and two fans that think nothing of lying and/or using people to achieve their own ends, be that fannish power or popularity/sympathy.
Apart from Lameo, every person I hate has proven themselves to be a high level user of people. So is Lameo in the sense that he wants everyone to like him, but I don't think I've ever seen him manipulate people to the degree the others have. Most don't care what damage they do to others, so long as they get what they want.
Doing that consistantly for years is what it takes to get on my shitlist. Actually, by that criteria God should be there too, but he doesn't exist :P
Wow... I'm impressed you already had a shitlist written up, and knew who was at which number.... *worried* I'll make sure not to piss you off! :D
It literally takes years of really hard work to get on my shitlist. Or for someone to hit on my mum less than a week after my dad has died, and to try and claim that they should shag in his memory. That's a good way to get there without the hard work :)
I tend to think the best of people, and to pretty much always be willing to give people multiple chances, so you have to be pretty consistently horrible to people over a fairly extended period to get there. And that's just not you :)
Most of the people I've ended up hating don't care how much damage they do to others, so long as they get what they want. They use and abuse and they only show signs of remorse if they think that's what will get people off their backs. And if seriously caught out, they will find an excuse, or blame some other poor bugger, rewriting history as much as is needed so that they are back to being squeaky clean.
pointed out to me, I'll take a hell of a lot of nastiness, lies and abuse aimed in my direction and mostly shrug it off (with a bit of whingeing), but when I see someone else being hurt, that's I start to get really angry.
So basically you hate the sociopaths you have met that you have seen mucking with other people?
I can't think of anyone I actively hate. There are people I dislike and people I will avoid if at all possible, but actively hating would take too much of my energy so as long as they're not bothering me or my friends then I can't be stuffed. Perhaps one day someone will do something that will get them over that line, but I'm not as yet sure where the line is.
On the other hand I'm also very limited in the people I love. While people such as yourself find it very easy to love, and possibly hard not to, it takes a lot more to get me to that level. I do cherish the people I have managed to achieve that with (though I'm still working on the balance between expressing that, and being clingy/needy - So sometimes I err on the side of not saying enough because I don't want to overdo things)
That is truly sucky :( I've escaped serial illness this year, but last year was bad and I remember that. Can only imagine how frustrating it would be with small child and being post stroke.
Hope it's sharp and short if it has to be there at all.
I seem to be getting serial illnesses this year. Only one that really affected my work (that was when I had the world spinning round). But it is annoying.
At least I know that while my earache is also annoying there is no physical way I could have transmitted it to you.
2009-09-15 11:33 am (UTC)
I recomend chicken soup
yeah 2009 sucks. I feel a bit better for getting out in the spring sunshine. I always feel better when winter ends. You will get better. Considering how complex people are, they are also really tough and heal. Good luck to you and yours.
2009-09-15 03:06 pm (UTC)
Re: I recomend chicken soup
Alas that I don't have any in house and wouldn't have the faintest idea how to cook it. Or time to do so.
But yes, I'm hoping that the spring will bring a better mood and health (apart from the hayfever). At least I seem to have missed out on the swine flu. I get colds by the dozen, but so far no flu.
My lovely wife has been suffering from serial illness this year, it is an extremely irritating thing.