March 14th, 2007

Serious Thoughts

Breakable

Had another terrible night's sleep, my hormones have suddenly all but vanished (something of a blessing at the mo'), and today I'm feeling strangely... fragile.

What I want to do today is spend a few hours in bed, cuddled up with someone I like and trust. Warm skin touching, feeling a heartbeat through a bare chest pressed against me, limbs tangled together for no other reason than to increase contact. Quiet conversation on topics from books and tv through to philosophical or scientific issues... or long comfortable silences where we each merely enjoy the presence of the other, drifting in and out of sleep. I want to cuddle up behind someone warm, soft and welcoming, breath in their scent and just be glad to have that moment. Want to be held by someone who cares, my head nestled into a shoulder or chest, while I sigh with happiness or weep as I need.

Today I feel lost and alone, and I want to be found again in the embrace of someone I trust to be gentle.